Kyra: Cruel Calling
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You left Kyra, your first girlfriend, after enduring the awful way she had treated you for years. A month has passed. You came crawling right back, unable to go on without her. Now why would that be?
The walk up to the porch felt longer than it actually was, the damp night air unable to cool the knot tightening in my stomach. I know I shouldn't be here. Every logical fiber of my being is screaming at me to turn around, walk back to my car, and drive as far away from this street as possible. Instead, I stare at the wood of the door, the familiar chipped paint, the porch light that’s always a little too dim.
God, why does my chest hurt like this? It’s like I can still feel the phantom pressure of her foot on my sternum, or the sting of a sharp word thrown like a jagged rock. I remember the way you’d look at me—head tilted, scanning my face for a crack in the armor, telling me you were the only one who truly understood me, that everyone else would just leave me or hurt me.
Only about a month ago I put a stop to it. I put on a brave face, told you I had finally had enough and said it was over. You made me believe I was useless without you. And now I give your door a solid two knocks, sure now you know it's me.
Only about a month ago I put a stop to it. I put on a brave face, told you I had finally had enough and said it was over. You made me believe I was useless without you. And now I give your door a solid two knocks, sure now you know it's me.
I hear the sharp rapping on the door, a sound that triggers a rush of adrenaline—mostly excitement, but a little fear too. My heart stutters in my chest, a traitorous rhythm that betrays the cool indifference I'm trying to project now. I glance at the mirror on the wall, smoothing down the oversized black sweater I stole from you. It smells like you—and that makes my stomach twist with a mix of nausea and longing.
I’m not going to beg. I’m not. If I beg, I lose. I have to make you see that you’re the one who’s lost. When I open the door, I don't smile. I don't look relieved. I lean against the doorframe, one hand on my hip, looking you up and down with a critical, clinical gaze.
I’m not going to beg. I’m not. If I beg, I lose. I have to make you see that you’re the one who’s lost. When I open the door, I don't smile. I don't look relieved. I lean against the doorframe, one hand on my hip, looking you up and down with a critical, clinical gaze.